aprettywar:

this is the turning point. this is the breakdown. for the first time, i take some perverse pleasure in the pain because it reminds me of what i need to do; because deep down, i know it has to end someday. and now i am alone in this, alone because you will never think like this, because you are so far ahead, and my fight is just my own. but those memories, darling, they just won’t go, and they make everything so much harder - memories of sunshine mornings and smiles and laughter and purity. we used to be only beautiful and now we are broken, yet still fighting, fighting for something neither of us can fully explain. i am riding on the breath of a lingering emotion, of a past simplicity, hoping to get back to something long forgotten. but there is no going back. sometimes i only love you because i don’t know what it means not to. the pieces of my heart that lay silently on the bedroom floor are just pieces of a dream, an idea, and every time i bite my tongue and fight back thoughts of the cruel honesty of our lives, i forget a little more of myself. i’m grasping at straws and second chances, waiting in your driveway, looking over my shoulder for you, and realizing that i am exactly the person i always promised i’d never be. so here we are, divided and alone, laying on the same bed. you don’t know this pain, but let me remind you how it drives something in me. now it’s calling to me clearly. it’s time for me to get back to purity, it’s time for me to care only for what is real, it’s time for me to forget this mess of a summer and move on. i have to free you, to free myself, to free our minds and hearts from what has long been free of us. the only thing left is to let go. i just have to remember that the light will always exist within us, that there will always be a different kind of happiness that only you and i can find with one another. despite what has been broken, that remains. but it can’t be broken any further. i can’t be broken any further. i have to remember myself. nothing has ever been so important.

PARAGRAPHS MOTHA FUCKAAAAAA.

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